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so, today I went to metric with Althea, Brandon, and Jeremy. It was a really magnificent day, minus the freezing feet and fact that my shirt is the wrong size. :( * angstt *
I thought it was a guys size, but it turned out to be a stupid girls shirt, which sucks monkey balls.
but over all a really enjoyable day spent with amazing people.

btw!! i finished all my christmas presenting yesterday, and i'm thinking i'll be santa and go deliver them tomorrow.
i am just so content right now it's ridiculous,
other then the shirt thing,
because i feel super chubs, but ehh.

shit.

Wonderful, this is reallll naiice..

Oh my gosh

Okay,
so kirsten, prerana, kelsey, and I had a sleepover at kelsey's yesterday and we thought it was a good idea to watch Titanic. Kirsten, Prerana, and myself had all seen it and told Kelsey how sad it was. She didn't believe us.

we then spent... over two hours, ugly sobbing.

Kelsey was mistaken.

sigh

give me strength

Thank you

"Something will happen that seems like an answer to a prayer."

Hello all

wow Hi, it's been a while, i've been super busy hence my lack of posting. I'm so happy today, I don't even know why, todays been a good day. It was Kelsey's Birthday and Stasha and myself decided to deliver some surprise birthday cupcakes to her :D. It was nice, we spent a few hours with her and then left. Though on my way to Stashas I took the bus, and a very intoxicated man was sitting infront of me giving the stink eye. It was funny. I laughed. hahaha.
Now i'm trying to finish my homework, so I can have a relaxing rest of the day/weekend. I wish I could have seen Daniel today, seeing as it was his birthday as well, but oh well. He's gone camping so it's okay. Tomorrow i'm going to a party and i'm a bit hesitant, but i'm sure it will be okay.

katy is very content.
:)

not bad

well i got my blood test yesterday
and im awaiting
im scared

sheeshh

haven't blogged in a week, well, this week has been alright. I haven't had much time to myself, what with all the homework, choir and running i'm trying to feed into my day. it's ridiculoussss.
I really should go to bed, so hopefully i'll write again soon.

alrighty.

well, today wasn't bad. I was kind of on house arrest, but hopefully that will be over soon. I'm sure it will. I spent most of today working on this super stupid safety brochure thing for Biology which was a thrill and a half. as well I finally did something I was going to do for a long time, I went on a run! I used to run everyday when I was in grade 6 and I really want to pick it up again. I'll start off small of course, maybe 4 days a week around my block and eventually gravitate towards all the way to colebrook and back. I don't know, I hope so. plus I wanted to ask Kirsten if I could possibly get a job with her at timmies. I need a job.

I have so much I want to do this year. I really hope I can get it all done =]

eff.

I know it just sounds like i'm bitching.
but i'm now getting blamed for the fact that my mom is angry.
let me leave. now. oh god.

change my life please.

well, today's Friday and I had a basically great day. until I came home. so Kirsty was going downtown to buy a purse and she asked me if I wanted to go with her. I love downtown, so I of course say yes.. even though there was the small issue of me having no money. and... my mom wasn't entirely sure of me going. I convinced her I would be fine. so we're downtown having a great time, and then I phone my mom telling her nothings wrong we're fine... blah blah you know, checking in. So by the time kirsty and my self get home it's like 7 ish, it's cool. We go to Joe for a bit just to look around and then stop for sushi. that's where I realized shit, I owe kirsten 30$ and I have no money. (She knew, I was going to pay her back). and I text my mom and she FLIPS THE FUCK OUT. like worse then ever. so i'm sitting there humiliated trying to enjoy my sushi while my mother yells death threats through the ear piece. I was supposed to go to Rebeccas, but I thought that would be slightly pushing it since you know.. my mom is ready to break my face. sooo we get to the newton exchange where we run into Christine.. I really love that girl. and unfortunately her assface of a boyfriend. I don't even want to talk about what he did, he was such a little brat. anyways, we get on the C75 and I call my mom and tell her that i'll be home by 8:30. by that time, she sounds totally fine and maybe she wont kill me.. because I know damn well I shouldn't have spent that much.. but she went ape shit on me. well when I get home, she uses her threatening voice on me like i've done something terribly wrong. and she gives me a good ol' screaming at. that I think was totally uncalled for. and my mother has this thing where she doesn't listen to a thing anyone says, she just yells, and yells, and yells, and yells and yells. and even when it's sorted.. she brings the stuff up she was just yelling about and starts yelling and yelling and yelling and yelling about it all over again. when she gets like this.. basically everyday, i've just trained myself to not respond.. and to focus on something on a wall and write a story in my head about it.. passes the time. something to do. she was talking to me like I was crazy.. like I literally had some serious problem. she treated the situation like she had just found out I was smoking or doing drugs or drinking. that was how ridiculous the situation was. I'm sick of all this shit. it's ridiculous. and I can't stand it anymore. as well, Prerana was out in Langley with her boyfriend with out her mom knowing and she said she was at my house instead. I don't have a problem with that. well... my mom, was in a state and has a problem with everything and anything I do.. and is doing anything she can to find things wrong with my friends to make me feel bad. she basically is telling me that i'm being used.. and an idiot. and she's just saying it to be an ass hole because I don't feel that way. I haven't been this upset in a long long time. and it was all because I came home. if I had just slept at Rebeccas this wouldn't have happened.

HALLELUIAH

I did something on the last day of school involving some of my favourite people =]
hip hip hurrah!
school tomorrow.
bleh.
november come faster!!!

geez

how lame am I, home... no plans on the last day of summer. I guess that's just how it goes.

bah.

i'm bored.
althea come home already you poo.

as well

well, I forgot to write this in the last entry, but the L place was not open! Grrr.. so I have an appointment for Tuesday at 4:15 and hopefully I don't fail this time.

wish me luckkkkk =] ... again?
ahaha

what a pain.

well today I went to metro town to replace my stupid pants that I ripped. they conveniently didn't have one single pair in the entire store. so my mother and I made our way to richmond center to find that they infact had a pair! I was thrilled. I am now exhausted, and look forward to a lazy evening at home. hopefully pizza is in my future. maybe a good movie will be on tv. who knows?

great

well, I went in for my L today. funny story. before we left my house, I specifically told my mum "hey it says in the drivers book that I need my birth certificate." my mother being who she is, ignores my intelligence and takes me to the drivers place only to be greeted by the lady at the desk with "may I see your birth certificate." HA! I was right, maybe my mother should learn to listen. so we then have to head back home, a 15 minute drive there and back. and by the time we get there, i'm feeling completely sick and not very confident. I hadn't got much sleep the night before. so... I failed, by like 9 questions. I'm throughly unimpressed with life at the moment, but thankfully there's a place that's open tomorrow, and express place. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo hope I pass. wish me luck!!

oh man

It's for the better.

shit.

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oh my god

i'm in love with Jacob Black.
a character from a book.

oh man, someone get me some therapy

smiles all around.

well today was a very full and exhausting day. Rebecca and myself decided we were going to go downtown, so I had to get up at like 8 ish. I didn't end up getting up until 8:30 because thankfully Kirsten phoned me. =] thank you love. (we were up until 4:15 texting LOL) so anywho me and Rebecca were downtown by like 11:30ish and got crepes. HOM NOM NOM (lolololol kirsty). anyways we were there till like 2 and then we got tired. got back to rebeccas and then hung out till 630ish because SOMEONE takes 6 years to do everything!! ahahaha, we then went to kristins and made MORE crepes, and it was nice.

tiring day.
now ima play sims instead of you know... going to bed

my life as according to facebook for today:

Physical: VERY LOW INDEED. Rest. (-98 % but rising.)
Emotional: You're not at your best emotionally. (-43 % and falling.)
Intellectual: A good day for using your brain. (76 % but falling.)

oh dear

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Go to: Yesterday | Tomorrow Katy,
A friend of yours has a serious authority figure complex and you may have to give them some tough love to snap them out of some serious self-pity. Trust your intuition if you are not sure what to say. Even if they resist your advice, they are listening.

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Katy,
Don't allow anything to alter the confidence you have in yourself, since this is what makes you the most attractive. You are not perfect, but this makes you a more interesting individual.

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Go to: Yesterday | Tomorrow Katy,
If you're having a hard time believing how great you are, don't be afraid to ask for other people's opinions. Work at your own pace and watch your efficiency improve. Someone may be pushing you to go faster, but it will only discourage you. Explain your situation, and expect some understanding.

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shit son.

alright, well I just watched silent hill.. and I think I may die. normally, I'm not afraid of scary movies, but since I'm going to have to go to bed soon.. I'm scared shitless.. I don't think I'm going to be able to go upstairs because it will remind me of the darkness. I'm lame. but oh man, I need some recooperating time. I wish it had ended earlier so I had time to watch another film. since I have to get up at 8 to meet Rebecca at 9 30ish.
OH GADDDD

woah man.

Katy,
When in doubt, be sure to take the more cautious path. You may not be ready, but an important relationship is undergoing a change. It is not yet clear whether this change is for the better. Avoid showing resentment towards those that hold power over you.

that is very odd, because I completely know what this is directed towards.

alright well I just got back from Prerana's party and I actually had a pretty good time. everything seemed pretty alright by the end of the night. he even hugged me! I KNOW! very epic indeed. so I didn't end up doing what I planned because it wasn't the right time, and I think I may have regretted it if I had gone through with it? oh well. but hey i'm hoping to hang out with him soon, so who knows what will happen. I also hope to maybe go to sushi soon with Kirsten and Rebecca, unless they're lives are too busy. I miss just having random spontanious sleepovers with those girls. they're so epically fun. man I love them. you know, i'm actually completely content. and it's all because of one hug. i'm lame. but I don't care! hehehe :D

waking up

well I woke up and felt the feeling of sinking. it was not the cheerful optimistic feeling that I normally have felt in the past couple of weeks. and I fear that the downward spiral I was stuck in, in grade 10 may be upon me. I think i'm going to start yoga with Althea. she has just changed so much in a positive way! she's so happy and together and is so positive. nothing phases that girl. I want to be happy all the time, because that is the best feeling in the world. being completely and utterly content with everything in your life. it's all a state of mind. i'll be able to to do it, but it is just going to be harder for me. i'll need the extra push and the help of my 5 wonderful girl loves. I have something else that I don't particularly want to do today, and don't think that I'm actually going to get it done. I may end up doing it the day we're alone together. I'm sure that will be better, although he's going to be dreadfully upset with me and dissapointed. i'm not being fair to myself, and I have to begin putting my feelings before others. that may be another reason i'm dropping into this state again, because that's all i've ever done. I love to please. when I have succeeded at making someone else happy it's as though i've given myself permission to be happy as well. isn't that sad? well, I guess it's just who I am and one of these days, I am just going to have to accept myself. i'll get there eventually.

on another note, I have to make prerana an epic card. hopefully tonight goes smoothly. oh shit I forgot he would be there. crap bag. please don't make my night bad.

later on

interestingly enough, I did not end up getting cheese and crackers. I instead ended up coming to the realization that no one in life is going to help you as much as you can help yourself. I'm going to have to do this tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it, but I know it will help me in some way.

yesterday, I spent all day doing absolutely nothing while all my friends were out having a life. It didn't bother me at the time, but I'm bothered now. I will just have to get over it.

I bought Titanic for my love.

in fact I will go get cheese and crackers. and I am again excited.

this year will be different, I'm counting on it. the girl who brings the best out of me is coming to school and I know she will help make all the difference. I love you. I love you. I love you.

interesting

you know what, the more I tell myself that I don't care.. the more I care. WILL SOMEONE PLEASE JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF WITH. this is getting ridiculous, I don't even like you... we're not even friends... why do you have this power over me? I want things back to the way they were, when I wasn't self conscious, when I didn't think.. and then re-think absolutely everything I say thinking that oh shit, they're going to hate me even more now. judging people is not going to get you anywhere in life. you'll become a lonely old man. would you not rather have all friends instead of enemies? would you not rather just love all and be loved yourself? instead of being a self-conscious, wimpy loser? you thrive on other peoples approval. it's pathetic. really it is.

and as for you. I think the reason this is bothering me is because of the power you have over my friends. we were close friends. this is ridiculous. this is ridiculous. THIS. IS. RIDICULOUS. why are you able to live with the fact that you just dropped someone so close to you, and in the process turned everyone against that person? that is terrible, and since you're so great to everyone else.. I really can't say anything else. I wish you hadn't changed towards me.

on a happier note, I'm getting cheese and crackers and I'm stoked.