crap.

I hate it when my fb doesn't work.
plus I think I gained like 15 pounds today, considering how I ate like twice my body weight.
fuck periods,

ugh

I fucking hate hypocrisy. and when people are wrongfully mad.

great day

My day was very productive and fun,
I spent the morning with two of my favourite people, Rebecca and Kirsten :) I love hanging out with those two so much. They can always make me smile no matter what kind of mood i'm in. We stayed up till about 4 and got up at 1:30 (eep) lol then we had bagels and got driven home. The day before Kelsey Travis and Daniel came over to Kirstens for a couple of hours and we made dinner and watched friends :) It was nice

When I was home I actually managed to clean my entire room and bathroom :) I'm very pleased I had like a bag and a half of garbage. I'm stoked. I've been meaning to do that for so long and I was just so motivated.

HOORAH

come back :(

my heart is broken
I feel like i've lost a best friend.

its true

I miss my friends.
I miss them terribly.

Work tomorrow.

Weight's been gained. (fuckfuckfuck)

I want a tattoo, so badly.

I miss him too.

that is my life in a nutshell currently.


nomnom icecream.

today

today i've been feeling really weird, I had a great time with kirsten yesterday, basically just chilled all day... ate sushi watched family channel, talked it was really nice. the feeling I have is one a guilt though, so many relationships i've had have just been royally fucked and I honestly have no way of repairing them. I know its stupid to always be like " I wish, I wish!" but currently, I wish I had the power to make people forgive, and have them not be so strong in their heads that they can see the other sides of situations.

I'm going to hand out resumes and such today since I desparately need a job. something preferably that has good hours (a.k.a no closing shifts at 12am. or opening at 5am.) it would just be something good for me, plus then I'd have a reason to not sit on the couch and become a bit blob again like last summer.

eating scares me, whenever I eat I feel guilty because I never want to get back to the state I was last year... aging and weight gain scare me. whether thats vain or not... I can't help but feel that way.

someone save me from my mind.

HMM

Some guy asked me if I wanted to go blaze with him today on the bus.
oh.