bah.

i'm bored.
althea come home already you poo.

as well

well, I forgot to write this in the last entry, but the L place was not open! Grrr.. so I have an appointment for Tuesday at 4:15 and hopefully I don't fail this time.

wish me luckkkkk =] ... again?
ahaha

what a pain.

well today I went to metro town to replace my stupid pants that I ripped. they conveniently didn't have one single pair in the entire store. so my mother and I made our way to richmond center to find that they infact had a pair! I was thrilled. I am now exhausted, and look forward to a lazy evening at home. hopefully pizza is in my future. maybe a good movie will be on tv. who knows?

great

well, I went in for my L today. funny story. before we left my house, I specifically told my mum "hey it says in the drivers book that I need my birth certificate." my mother being who she is, ignores my intelligence and takes me to the drivers place only to be greeted by the lady at the desk with "may I see your birth certificate." HA! I was right, maybe my mother should learn to listen. so we then have to head back home, a 15 minute drive there and back. and by the time we get there, i'm feeling completely sick and not very confident. I hadn't got much sleep the night before. so... I failed, by like 9 questions. I'm throughly unimpressed with life at the moment, but thankfully there's a place that's open tomorrow, and express place. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo hope I pass. wish me luck!!

oh man

It's for the better.

shit.

Taurus Daily Horoscope Go to: Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow

Wednesday, August 27 Although you don't want to admit it, accepting defeat may be your most practical option at this point. Personal goals are met without too much resistance today. If there is an activity that interests you, now is the time to give it a try. Progress towards your goal with an open mind but try to narrow your focus. Astro Outlook Money Love Health Lucky Numbers 14, 17, 32, 34, 37, 45 Compatible Sign Capricorn

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oh my god

i'm in love with Jacob Black.
a character from a book.

oh man, someone get me some therapy

smiles all around.

well today was a very full and exhausting day. Rebecca and myself decided we were going to go downtown, so I had to get up at like 8 ish. I didn't end up getting up until 8:30 because thankfully Kirsten phoned me. =] thank you love. (we were up until 4:15 texting LOL) so anywho me and Rebecca were downtown by like 11:30ish and got crepes. HOM NOM NOM (lolololol kirsty). anyways we were there till like 2 and then we got tired. got back to rebeccas and then hung out till 630ish because SOMEONE takes 6 years to do everything!! ahahaha, we then went to kristins and made MORE crepes, and it was nice.

tiring day.
now ima play sims instead of you know... going to bed

my life as according to facebook for today:

Physical: VERY LOW INDEED. Rest. (-98 % but rising.)
Emotional: You're not at your best emotionally. (-43 % and falling.)
Intellectual: A good day for using your brain. (76 % but falling.)

oh dear

Monkey Horoscope
Go to: Yesterday | Tomorrow Katy,
A friend of yours has a serious authority figure complex and you may have to give them some tough love to snap them out of some serious self-pity. Trust your intuition if you are not sure what to say. Even if they resist your advice, they are listening.

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Love Horoscope

Katy,
Don't allow anything to alter the confidence you have in yourself, since this is what makes you the most attractive. You are not perfect, but this makes you a more interesting individual.

Taurus Horoscope
Go to: Yesterday | Tomorrow Katy,
If you're having a hard time believing how great you are, don't be afraid to ask for other people's opinions. Work at your own pace and watch your efficiency improve. Someone may be pushing you to go faster, but it will only discourage you. Explain your situation, and expect some understanding.

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Lucky Numbers 5, 12, 18, 22, 23, 45 Compatible Sign Cancer

shit son.

alright, well I just watched silent hill.. and I think I may die. normally, I'm not afraid of scary movies, but since I'm going to have to go to bed soon.. I'm scared shitless.. I don't think I'm going to be able to go upstairs because it will remind me of the darkness. I'm lame. but oh man, I need some recooperating time. I wish it had ended earlier so I had time to watch another film. since I have to get up at 8 to meet Rebecca at 9 30ish.
OH GADDDD

woah man.

Katy,
When in doubt, be sure to take the more cautious path. You may not be ready, but an important relationship is undergoing a change. It is not yet clear whether this change is for the better. Avoid showing resentment towards those that hold power over you.

that is very odd, because I completely know what this is directed towards.

alright well I just got back from Prerana's party and I actually had a pretty good time. everything seemed pretty alright by the end of the night. he even hugged me! I KNOW! very epic indeed. so I didn't end up doing what I planned because it wasn't the right time, and I think I may have regretted it if I had gone through with it? oh well. but hey i'm hoping to hang out with him soon, so who knows what will happen. I also hope to maybe go to sushi soon with Kirsten and Rebecca, unless they're lives are too busy. I miss just having random spontanious sleepovers with those girls. they're so epically fun. man I love them. you know, i'm actually completely content. and it's all because of one hug. i'm lame. but I don't care! hehehe :D

waking up

well I woke up and felt the feeling of sinking. it was not the cheerful optimistic feeling that I normally have felt in the past couple of weeks. and I fear that the downward spiral I was stuck in, in grade 10 may be upon me. I think i'm going to start yoga with Althea. she has just changed so much in a positive way! she's so happy and together and is so positive. nothing phases that girl. I want to be happy all the time, because that is the best feeling in the world. being completely and utterly content with everything in your life. it's all a state of mind. i'll be able to to do it, but it is just going to be harder for me. i'll need the extra push and the help of my 5 wonderful girl loves. I have something else that I don't particularly want to do today, and don't think that I'm actually going to get it done. I may end up doing it the day we're alone together. I'm sure that will be better, although he's going to be dreadfully upset with me and dissapointed. i'm not being fair to myself, and I have to begin putting my feelings before others. that may be another reason i'm dropping into this state again, because that's all i've ever done. I love to please. when I have succeeded at making someone else happy it's as though i've given myself permission to be happy as well. isn't that sad? well, I guess it's just who I am and one of these days, I am just going to have to accept myself. i'll get there eventually.

on another note, I have to make prerana an epic card. hopefully tonight goes smoothly. oh shit I forgot he would be there. crap bag. please don't make my night bad.

later on

interestingly enough, I did not end up getting cheese and crackers. I instead ended up coming to the realization that no one in life is going to help you as much as you can help yourself. I'm going to have to do this tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it, but I know it will help me in some way.

yesterday, I spent all day doing absolutely nothing while all my friends were out having a life. It didn't bother me at the time, but I'm bothered now. I will just have to get over it.

I bought Titanic for my love.

in fact I will go get cheese and crackers. and I am again excited.

this year will be different, I'm counting on it. the girl who brings the best out of me is coming to school and I know she will help make all the difference. I love you. I love you. I love you.

interesting

you know what, the more I tell myself that I don't care.. the more I care. WILL SOMEONE PLEASE JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF WITH. this is getting ridiculous, I don't even like you... we're not even friends... why do you have this power over me? I want things back to the way they were, when I wasn't self conscious, when I didn't think.. and then re-think absolutely everything I say thinking that oh shit, they're going to hate me even more now. judging people is not going to get you anywhere in life. you'll become a lonely old man. would you not rather have all friends instead of enemies? would you not rather just love all and be loved yourself? instead of being a self-conscious, wimpy loser? you thrive on other peoples approval. it's pathetic. really it is.

and as for you. I think the reason this is bothering me is because of the power you have over my friends. we were close friends. this is ridiculous. this is ridiculous. THIS. IS. RIDICULOUS. why are you able to live with the fact that you just dropped someone so close to you, and in the process turned everyone against that person? that is terrible, and since you're so great to everyone else.. I really can't say anything else. I wish you hadn't changed towards me.

on a happier note, I'm getting cheese and crackers and I'm stoked.